The loss and my knight.

Brittani was my light. She really was I love all my kids of course. But with out Brittani I would have fallen apart.

It all started on October 18, 2006. My kids need to be up by 6 am to get on the bus at 6:30. Well its was Wed. and I woke up at 7 and boy was I ticked. I heard up got the kids dressed grabbed Britt and headed to school. You see Shane always called at 6 am to wake me and I got no call. Nothing at all. No matter how many times I called him I got no answer. I was not worried I was mad. I got the kids to school on time and was heading home.

I need to take Britt to Chambersburg for an appointment but since I really didn't have anything with me figured I would stop back over at the house to get the bag and bottles. I was only there for about 30 mins before there was a knock at the door. I hope no one reading this ever has that knock. It was a WM employee and the grim reaper.

They came to tell me the worst thing I could ever hear. Then man I share 3 kids with the guy I thought I would grow old with was now gone. They started saying things like accidents, Fog, and other terms i don't remember anymore. Then they said find someone close and get them here as soon as possible. Now I live like 30 mins from anyone at this point. Only person that came to my mind was my baby brother. You see in my family he was the one person I always thought would be there. But things change.

This day how ever he was there in 15 mins at that. I don't want to know how he made the trip in that short of time but he did. I left Britt with the neighbor. At this point people were already being told what had happened. They are only required to hold the press till they tell next of kin. I begin to make my calls telling everyone I could think of. I was always told you walk in a daze state of shock. Boy was that true.

I know tons of people came in and out of my house for the next few weeks. I can't tell you who or what they said but I can tell you I felt so alone. Even in a room full of people. Telling the kids was the hardest job. They were 8 , 6, and 1. That's it for today.